Things have changed, I can
no longer sit here, study and
wait. Something irate lurks deep
within. Ash flakes tumble off of me.
Dostoevsky slathers the black
shadows I see. I cannot eat,
drink, nor seldom think. But
the bloom comes at an odd hour
later, when I am covered in light
petals forecasting the beautiful
innocence we are all licensed to, but
conceal lately. What must I do to make
it work? I can feel the life course
through my limbs. I am eager--
hopefully it will work. My train of
emotions is broken--I pay dues
with funds I do not have. What is
my plan, where is my strength?
I want a loan I cannot pay back,
I want to lacerate my pride into
threads of waning colors, unapt
to be put back together. I am
stirring--I, an ill-bred lout
with words like kicked-up dirt
stinging, suffocating those riding
my trail.
Published by Ziggy Mang
I write because the thoughts would otherwise
bleed through my head. I do not know if I am
ambitious anymore, I would just like to tell
everyone that since people like to think all
else. Everyone should be ambitious but I can
never feel it in me forever; every time I go
to sleep it seems like I just wake up, not a
dream or image comes to my mind except these
stale moments where everything I was the day
before becomes erased. The poems and stories
I write are who I am. They are the only bits
of myself that I can keep from each day. Its
not amnesia but I lose my head or else I can
see these thoughts bleeding through my head.
Can't you see that? Everyone else thinks I'm
crazy but I do know I am no oddity or artist
just that I am breathing words that can make
sense even if the images seem blurry or dim.
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Love this! & I love Dostoevsky!!! :)